well today has been kind of crazy,because i am so busy trying to plan for the next minute. that i haven't been able to enjoy what's in front of me .i am trying to work on this because the truth be told i have been blessed.over the pass two years i have been trying to work on my relationships with my kids and family because of my prior addiction i have missed out on a lot of time and years with them,so when i realized that i was strong enough to deal with the ups and downs that come with trying to starting new,because i know i can not make up for lost time,i can only build on what's new.i must admit that it has been wonderful and exciting at the same time.