Inside the House

Juanita's weekly blog

Good Morning… this is Juanita again. Listen I know on last week I was pretty raw… but don’t be alarmed. It’s not time to call 911 or Sheppard Pratt. I am having no episodes of brief psychosis. I’m not in a psychotic state, in other words I am no danger to myself or others. But what I am is a woman who wants a chance at real living, not existing. A chance to be independent, and full of life, again.  I am not here to get over on the system, looking for a handout or anything like that. I am here due to wrong choices and bad decisions. Drug- free, alcohol- free, but I do have one major issue low-self esteem. I know it and I am and will continue to strive to become a woman of confidence, vim, and vigor, again. I will get back into society and I will be and do all I can to help other women like myself to have the self –realization of who we are and what we can become: A positive force in this world that deserves to be heard. I will help others to realize that delayed doesn’t mean denied and that making a mistake is not the end of the world, but a chance to start a new life afresh!

The United States of America is a welfare resistant country. We don’t care too much for the poor. Poor people get help, but only to a point. Women who are on welfare or any type of assistance are seen as lazy.  In some cases this may be true. But please know that there are some of us that fall through the cracks, that fall on hard times, some have mental illness and lose their way, lose jobs, go through divorce and many other reasons.  We are not all lazy and good for nothing.  It is a struggle to get ahead when you are seen as invisible, devalued, and misrepresented.  When you have a self-fulfilling prophecy dangling over your head and preconceived notions that have already passed judgment on you that you are a failure.So my struggle continues… I will give out at times, but I will never give up. I am in control of my destiny, not what anyone thinks